emo?tional situation

I'm completely exhausted!! gah school's assignments and activities drives me insane!! jam 3 ini gue harus latihan saman karena besoknya lomba di GIS (wish us luck :D) ok get ready for my stories..........

MAN, GUE CAPEEEEK! sebenernya gue capek banget saman, pas gue nganterin lidya ngasih surat izin keluar sebenernya gue rada tergoda untuk keluar juga karena gue udah capek banget, nilai gue jelek2, dll. gue sih seneng lomba tapi capek banget rasanya terus kita kan juga harus menang so there's so much pressure for us. and the homeworks, oh so many of them! minggu depan ada tf math dan gue gak ngerti.

i just want to end this but reality is reality. you have to face it. gue malah pengen cepetin waktu biar gue udah rileks lagi bodo amat pas waktunya dicepetin gue udh gempor. gue cuma males ngeliat keadaan.

oh yes one more thing, i'm not a social butterfly,people. i do have many friends, but there's a time that i have to be alone, no talking, no activities, just me and my thoughts. jangan heran ya. mungkin gue bacot disini tapi sebenernya hal-hal yang gue gak bahas di sekolah atau mana kek ya gue taro disini. so lucky you readers, you know me better than my friends. walaupun sebenernya gak ada yg baca (mungkin). banyak orang yg mungkin bilang "hah? manda pendiem? pendiem apaan? ngaco ah" padahal sebenernya gue emang pendiem. I'm an introvert. gue cuma ngomong kalo lagi mood, kalo gak ya gak. gue juga bukan popularity chaser. f*ck popularity chasers, your life is damn pathetic. kalo lo mau populer karena lo aktif si gue dukung kalo gak? cuma tampang doang ya terserah deh. many of my friends now a popularity chasers and they dumped me. lo boleh ngejudge gue, tapi as i told before "I WRITE WHATEVER I WANT" bodo deh mau dicap "iri" kek "gak mampu" ya emang gue benci beneran. gue benci karena temen-temen gue yang dulu, yang seharusnya keep-in-touch sama gue kalo ketemu udah kayak total strangers, they forgot about me.

kalo gue mau frontak sih bisa, tapi ini kan internet, semua orang bisa ngeliat. huh F my life!